If I was single, I would ____ you.

I hate that line more than I can possibly say.  "If I was single"?  Really?  Do not say that to someone.  Seriously.  I do not want to know what you would do if you were single because you are not.  And, even if you become single, I might not want to have much to do with you in that way because 1) I don't want to be a rebound, and 2) its not fair to anyone else, especially the person you just ended it with.

My friends, who most of them are dating each other, tell me this all the time.  All.  The.  Time.  I have a policy of not dating friends as is (if I can help it) and not being with those who are already with someone (not only is it polite, but then I don't feel like shit when they decide to stay with their one partner).  I don't want to hear about IF you break up with the person you are with now!  Because I kinda like that you are with the person you are with now!  And, again, the "no dating friends" policy.

I don't want to be rebound.  I want someone to date me because they want to be with me.  Part of me often thinks they want to "be" with me because I am the only person in our group of friends they have not been with, or with anyone for that matter!  "Forbidden Fruit" whatever.  It makes me feel like shit honestly!  I want the intimacy that they have with their other.  I would love to have that!  But, as people know, I suck at relationships it seems.  And, I want to be cared about romantically, and I feel like by saying that sentence, it feels like to me that you wouldn't do that for me.

But I swear, if I hear that sentence one more time, I will break something.


Peace, Love and all that Jazz
~Talls